Persecuted But Not Abandoned

I wanted a way to express what a few people mean to me but every time I start thinking of a way to tell people I here cheesy piano music and this camera crew pops out and starts filming for lifetime and that gets a bit old after a while so I figured I would side step them and just write to a few people who I want to thank and explain why they are so amazing.



I have never had a true guy best friend growing up in school and that kind of hurts a teenage guy growing up because a teenage guy doesnt typically want to be one of the girls all of the time, but my life completely changed when I got to college. I met a friend in showchoir and we started talking but we never really clicked I guess and then all of a sudden and I wake up and I have the most amazing friend who taught me to love myself for who I am. he taught me that life has unexpected twist and turns but you have to get your ass up and just face it. when ever I am being ridiculous I can alway count on him to tell me. our friendship is based on complete honesty and by complete I mean brutal! its not uncommon for us to make fun of each others unfortunate circumstances but thats how we remain so close. I know that when I wake up each morning I can go to school and have a friend that cares about me and what happens in my life. so here is to you Ryan Pilcher. thank you for being there for me even when I was at my lowest and thank you for being the most trustworthy person ever even when they tried to break our friendship we stayed strong and now I have the best brother in the world and i cant wait to have many more adventures in showchoir this year ( but lets keep the haters out of it lol).



to my mom, you are literally the reason I get out of bed each morning and face each day. you are the reason that I take my dreams and I run with them because you inspire me, you are the colors on my palate and you are brush that the artist of my soul paints with. you mean so much to me and without you I honestly do not have a reason to dream. there have been a lot of things this past year that I deal with by I can promise that no matter who I am I will never forget everything you have taught me because I know who you are and what you stand for and I thank you for trying to be so understanding but mom I need you to love me know matter what because you think you have a clue bu for someone who has never dealt with this before its almost impossible to understand and dont worry ill be fine. but I honestly believe that there is more to me than just what people see and i'm not sorry for trying to love my self for who feel like I am. maybe one day people will stop to think how much words hurt but for now I have got to find my way and I need you to be there every step of the way to tell me you love me.



this last one is a very special one to me because instead of teaching me a lesson in a positive way they have taught me how to love and live by teaching me that loving them is absolutely impossible and that sometimes even parents are not to be loved. dad you have never treated me with the respect I deserve, you turned me into an adult way before my time and I dont hate you for that and because of you my life is amazing because I have learned what people like you act like what you think like and I wa just recently told that you and your mother have called me ungrateful well you just listen up buddy.. I am grateful for everything in my life and I love my life and I am not sorry that I will not come visit you because your are a liar and a cheater! you can't take responsibility for your own actions and even though you have taught me to be an adult by force, you will never be one yourself. I am not sorry that I have disconnected my self from you because where were you all those times I waited for you to come pick me up and you never showed up and I would cry myself to sleep, but I wouldnt feel flattered if I were you because I wasnt crying because I wanted you I was crying because you didnt want me. its time you realize that your a fake. your not a good guy and you think that you have to sleep with every girl you meet because your scared of being alone but then in the end they leave you because they realize just how much trash you really are when they find out you might be cheating on them. so here is to everything I have become because its everything your not!